i want to try how to use LJ cut...

so here i go.

( tryyyyyyyy~ )

DISCLAIMER: i don't take a side as always, but here i just wanna share what i've thought recently.



The first hearing of the lawsuit between SM and JSC resulted an offer of solution from SM. They said they will change the contract and the profit share will be increased from 10% to 15% (i don't remember the exact number, but that's what i recall).

I don't know whether JSC will accept it or not. Some people said the contract change WON'T change anything. Because what they want is their freedom.

I have this thought: they sued that company because of unfair contract. If the company offer them to renew the it, why don't they take this opportunity? I mean, they still can bargain, not just ignore it and cut it down.

My second thought: if they win, then leave the company, how about the rest 2 members? I seriously have no idea how to drag them out from SM and, what will TVXQ be without any of them?

I can't say JSC should stay or not, it depends on them, really. I just wanna say: "please be together again as you used to."

This is the end of my ranting. I know i'm nothing in this case but i just wanna share my point of view.
Leaving now! Thanks for reading~

ok, i'm here because i'm quite bored haha. i just wanna post some of Trivia Questions, copied from Changmin's questionaire, some questions are edited. enjoy~

1. Male or female: female
2. Birth date: August 12th 1992, about 10PM
3. Family: Dad, Mom, me, younger brother
4. Skin tone: brownish tan
5. Height: 161 cm
6. When were you most sad: when i lost someone / something i really love
7. When i was the happiest: when i got accepted to enroll the school i really want
8. Musicians i look up to: TVXQ, Whitney Houston, Beyonce
9. Places i go most often: school, my bff's home
10. When do you watch the most movies: in weekends or school holiday
11. -
12. What kind of person am i: i treat nicely to people who don't harm me
13. Favorite song to sing at karaoke: 'When You Believe' - Whitney Houston & Mariah Carey
14. First love: my junior high school classmate
15. First kiss: i haven't kissed anyone
16. Fav. movie: 'Ocean' series, 'Lord of the Ring' series, 'Bourne' series
17. Fav. flower: white lily, jasmine
18. Fav. TV show: i don't watch TV so often (no kidding)
19. What would you do if you weren't a singer: because i already am, so...
20. Favorite books: Harry Potter series, The Secret, One Piece, Bleach
21. Where i want to visit: Japan, South Korea, New Zealand
22. Fav. food: meatball and tofu soup
23. Fav. fruit: grapes, strawberries, longan
24. Fav. color: black, white, purple
25. Nicest thing I did: i made a drawing for less or more 2 hours and gave it to my friend as birthday present
26. My most important possession: my phone and my Changmin necklace
27. Something i want to say: hope me luck for my Uni entrance test result, guys...
28. People i remember: my family, relatives, friends, and people i love
29. People i think of: people that i love
30. If you died: i hope i can be in the Heaven
31. Good thing about yourself: i'm perfectionist
32. Something bad about yourself: kinda lazy
33. People you respect: people who are polite sincerely
34. Ideal birthday present: i like any gifts i get
35. hardest thing you had to do: to pass the Uni entrance test
36. -
37. Hobbies: listening to music, drawing, reading, singing
38. Specialties: drawing
39. Habits: biting nails
40. What i want to do to with the person i love: make him happy whenever i'm with him
41. What i want to receive from the person i love: anything from him
42. What i want to don with the person i love: walking together, hand in hand
43. Prized possession: my family
44. Fav. animal: cats
45. How are you dressed: long sleeves tee, pants, veil
46. People i don't like: rude, bad personality
47. When i look weak: when i'm sick
48. Stress reliever: music, sleep, crying
49. When i hurt someone: i hurt someone everyday, i have flaws anyway
50. What you think when you look in the mirror: my dark circles...
51. Something i most regret: i can't say i love you to my first love
52. # of kids you want: 1 or 2
53. What's your phone greeting: Intoxication
54. Today's weather: hot and cloudy
55. Fav. #: 12
56. How much can you drink: i've never drunk. unless you ask about drinking mineral water LOL
57. I slept over anywhere: at my friend's house
58. Have you ever run away from home: i haven't although sometimes i really want
59. Ideal man: polite, has bright smile, good personality
60. What i want to say to my friends: i really love you guys!
61. What i want to eat: ice cream, it's really hot here T___T
62. Your personality: i'm very polite as long as nobody goes rude to me
63. How often do you go to the bathroom: i only go there if i want to
64. Religion: Islam
65. Do you like receiving or giving: both of them
66. Most memorable day: when i went to Blue's concert with my dad. that was a dream come true
67. Fav. fashion: simple
68. Hours of sleep you get: 5-7 hours
69. When you don't like yourself: when i make something wrong
70. When i find myself charismatic: uhhhh i don't know either
71. What you do when you're alone: clinging with my computer, reading, drawing
72. People you've gone out with: 1
73. Where do you look first when you see someone: eyes
74. What i think of my life so far: full of messy things but i enjoy it :)
75. Complex: my hair is kinda messy (for all time)
76. You like your mom or dad: both of them of course
77. When you fight with someone: almost everyday, to be honest
78. When someone wants to break up: i might be speechless
79. If someone you loved got a horrible disease: i'll make him/her happy and feel better
80. If your parents didn't like the person you like: i'll reassure them that he is a nice guy
81. What are you going to do after you finish this: back to writing my oneshot story
82. What you think of couples: they make me want to have my guy here hahaha
83. Nicknames: Afi, Tsurayya
84. What you have next to you: speakers, CPU, printer
85. Movies i want to see: Paradise Meadow!!! lol is it a movie? still i want to watch it right now~
86. Movies that i most remember: Millionaire's First Love
87. People i see most often: my family, friends
88. Fav. sport: swimming
89. Your hairstyle as of now: long wavy hair
90. Fav. season: wet season
91. What do you have in your bag: a pack of tissue, MP3 player, asthma inhaler
92. How many cards do you have: ID cards? 3 = citizen ID, student ID, library card
93. When you're sad: when someone or something makes me sad
94. What kind of men do you not like: impolite, bad personality

i think that's all~ phew, so many questions i had to answer! but i had fun :)
have a nice weekend, fellas! love you <3

riinsomnia wants me to do this LOL. so here we go~

SIX NAMES YOU GO BY
- Afi
- Tsurayya
- Afifah
- Nur
- Nurtsur (because of my Twitter username)
- Fi

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
- White Tee
- Black shorts
- Black specs

THREE THINGS YOU WANT VERY BADLY AT THE MOMENT
- An announcement that says I'm accepted to be a student of University of Indonesia
- Vaio White laptop
- TVXQ's comeback

THREE PEOPLE WHOM YOU HOPE WILL DO THE MEME
- Gotami
- Faye
- Astrid

THREE THINGS YOU DID LAST NIGHT
- Hung out with my BFF
- Played with my kitties
- Read fanfic

THREE PEOPLE YOU LAST TALKED TO ON THE PHONE
- Mom
- Tia, my BFF
- Costumer Service *rofl*

THREE THINGS YOU ARE GOING TO DO TOMORROW
- Read a newspaper or open UI website to search MY NAME on them!
- Being in front of the computer all day long
- Maybe go to school, to finish some payments

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE DRINKS
- Mineral water
- Milk
- Latte

THREE THINGS THAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY
- The fact that my 'snake girl' is having her birthday today
- Lurking some TVXQ stuffs and photos on web
- The sweetness of my chocolate milk

IN OTHER NEWS
- Today is so hot as always
- My intensive class will start this SUNDAY. kill me
- I really wanna shout someone's mouth so freaking much

enjoy people~
 

Ignore this posting if you really don't like angsty writing. Like seriously.



Today was horrible. I had a fight with my dad about how i supposedly use computer and internet connection and so on. He dragged my mom into the debate & as result, she nagged at me as well. My bro felt annoyed with this, & my grandma gave me an 'advice' in the end.

Fuck my life.

I supposedly gave an argument & my own statement, but nothing came out from my mouth because i know that'd be useless anyway. Who will listen to my words?

No one.

Holding all my tears back because my dad hates to see someone crying.

I speak nothing because every single word from me seems pissing him off.

I sacrifice all my feelings, just to make all people happy. But in the end no one appreciates it.

Fuck my fucking life.

To be honest, they know so little about me. What a shame, those so-called parents.

I decided to talk less from now on. I'll lock myself in my room & drawing or reading. I'll kill my emotions. I'll do whatever they order without asking back.

I think being an autism girl all over again will be so much better.

They'll no longer hear any words from me. Because anything coming out from my mouth make them piss off.